Finding One's Real Purpose

Everything else in the world is temporary.
Change as always been said is the only thing that is constant.
Therefore, how do you set a purpose or will that purpose change in time?

First, purpose is define as one's mission in life. Natural science dictates that the basic goal of a human being to reproduce that is why aside from his sex organ one is also given good looks and sex appeal. But all animals even trees down to the tiniest microbe has this purpose. If our purpose is limited to the same purpose as one single micro organism where is the essence to that. If we will stop with our purpose being compared to a microbe. Perhaps this is one of the reason why in the Philippines I see a lot of people spreading like disease in the metro even if they can't feed or educate their offspring. The ratio of poor people not being able to help in nation building is getting bigger as the politicians in the country still fight against a simple reproductive health bill. Anyway, the point is that if reproduction is the only purpose in life then perhaps I will just hit on every woman I know regardless of social class or physical attributes and be the best donor of gene and make my ancestors DNA spread like fire all over the world. Probably that would be exciting or at some point intoxicating. Like being a Revilla of my own making or probably a King Solomon of modern times. But sadly, no matter how tempting that purpose maybe I refuse to allocate energy with such activity.

How about serving God? I have read the Purpose Driven Life and somehow it reminds me of the "Greatest Salesman in World" book written by Og Mandino. Both of these books I didn't finished since I have to read only 1 chapters a day and during that time I don't have that kind of discipline and I find it somewhat boring.  I guess serving God bring out the spiritual part of man. It gives man, as existentialist puts it, a deeper meaning. Now, this is a purpose that can't be compared to other trees and animals. I have yet to see a dog pray the rosary or the trees bow down and proclaim praises. I guess religion, "religare" in Greek, somehow really create that relationship between God and human. Everything seems to have meaning because of God. I'll try to avoid the discussion of religion since it is like the Law of Gravity. It is somethings that can't be challenged worst mocked. I'll just accept it simply as this fact, "all people regardless of race and color believe in something". Whether Buddha, Mohammad, Christ or that pastor always shouting in singing in Davao. The fact is it is human nature to desire to believe in something so let us leave it at that.

How about nation building. To be an inspiration to other people. To help build communities and develop one's economy. Is this a purpose worth contributing into. Is it possible that every man have that inner desire to help build a nation and it just takes a spark of anger or a sigh of inspiration to make each person start. Is it possible that regardless of our intent, whether it is money or social status, it is possible for men to find in himself that desire to establish nation. If your purpose in life is to be a Hero, will you accept it? Or you will just laugh it all out and ridicule that idea. But somehow, the world need heroes, not like what Marvel or DC offers. You don't need to be an Avenger or an X-Men to do good. I believe that each one have that inner desire a sort of messianic complex wanting to save someone or help out. Perhaps this is easily made visible through religion but what if it can be expressed in nature preservation or economic development, would that be a purpose worth pursuing.

Money. They say money controls the world. If the purpose of individuals is to be rich will that be awesome. If some nerdy looking fellow happen to create the new Facebook or a talkative individual with no real social connection happen to create the new Twitter and accumulate a lot of money would that be a very good purpose? Perhaps.

So what is my real purpose in life? To reproduce? To serve God? To build nation? or am I a slave to Money  and all things it can buy. My philosophy professor used to taught us that a person is becoming. This implies that who you are now is a different person that who you are before. You can only be judge when you are already dead. This mean that as long as you can breathe then each day you are given the chance to change whatever you want to do in life be it good or bad.

I remember a story when I was young. A villain was asked by the heroes to help them. The villain refused and somehow I feel for the villain. He remarked, "my purpose in life is to destroy China, if I help you, it is as if I killed myself." I am so much fascinated with that person's vision destroying China but what intrigues me most is the fact that even if he is going to lose that battle he never let go of his purpose.

The truth is, there is no "real" purpose or rather "purpose" is relative to time. Your purpose may change as you age. The only thing that remain are the memories of each little decision you made in your life with respect to your purpose. My point is, live each day as if it was your last. Find your purpose each day but be grounded by the values you have in life. Your values is what will guide you so you will never get lose in fulfilling your purpose in life. Whatever it is, even if it means having the most number of babies you can create with your wand, as long as this is what your values call you to do then.... whatever, it is alright. You can reproduce even you are poor and you don't have money for your children. It is ok since the government of the Philippines haven't decided yet with the reproductive bill and even the church supports that you reproduce, the green light is on.

If you are a foreigner reading this, its really funny how Filipino politicians debate on certain bills. Really hilarious even one politician had to plagiarize during his speeches about the controversial bill. Sadly, our political maturity in the Philippines haven't mature that much. But with the Aquino administration driving the helm of the country, I'm sure we will soon get to our destination as one of the most powerful country in the world.

Definition of Craziness

Craziness is defined as doing something over and over again and expecting a different result.

I guess most of us are crazy with this definition. People who fall in love with the wrong person kept on believing that the love he feels is real. Doing business with the same business models that fail. Working for companies until all the life in him is sucked out. I guess we are all crazy at one point in our lives... We tend to believe in something which is never real but we just pretended that this is real to us. Well, this is very different from religion so we cannot liken craziness with subject on religion since faith, just like believing in having a life after death is something cultural... thus can not be said to be crazy... I guess.

While all of us are crazy at one point the fact is that we never recognize our craziness until it really hit us. Sometimes when it hit us we are really devastated or broken to the point that we cannot reconstruct even our own self-image, refusing to eat or just be happy with life. I guess what I'm trying to say is, its very difficult to know when you are already crazy or you are just being persistent.

My point is that I may not totally agree with the definition on craziness or am I already being crazy? For example, in love, if you really love someone and you kept on pushing in improving your self and showing the other person how much you love her is that persistence or craziness?

In businesses, if you fail a thousand times and never give up are you destined to succeed sooner or later. In work if you work hard for your company are bound to learn in the process and grow more in your career. While we ridicule people who never give up and called them crazy, sometimes we have to think that it was the craziness of Einstein that brought about the Theory of Relativity, craziness of people like Stephen Hawking that produces Quantum Physics or you have the classic craziness of Thomas Edison that created the first light bulb. If it weren't for the craziness of Lt. Sanders, will we ever have tasted KFC and all its finger looking goodness!

It is the crazy people that changes the world as we know it now. The normal people are just fixtures of time. It is the game setters of this world... the people who are called crazy that changes everything.

If falling in love is crazy... then call me the Craziest individual. I will never stop loving since it gives me meaning to life.

If doing business is crazy... then call me the craziest entrepreneur with the wildest ideas.

If working hard for the company is crazy... then I am guilty as charged but never lock me up in a mental institution instead free me up so I can join the others. For I was diagnosed that these craziness is viral and it is my dream to spread this disease and change the world.

Oceans Apart...

Sometimes there comes a time when you can't talk to anyone about any of your problems. It is as if no one understands. Even the people whom you thought you can give your life seems to leave you behind. It is the feeling of being abandoned that seems to suck the purpose out of my life.

I don't know if there is any self-help book, a Carnegie or a Napoleon Hill that can cure the loneliness I feel. The feeling of having lost everything. While I tried to put the pieces back together, while I try to re-build the foundation from scratch I suffer more mockery. With my hands I try to plant success. I sometimes cut these hands while pulling out weeds and it bleeds to the ground. Sometimes these hands are attacked by thousand ants but I don't feel a single bite. I am on to something big. Im establishing my purpose in life. Slowly planting each tree of success but there is still more to come. The road to success is still long and I can't be tired this early.

I was taught before by my Philosophy teacher that one can detach himself from his emotions. Actually this is what I often do when my heart is broken to thousand pieces. I try talking to my consciousness and letting myself be void of emotion. Emotions affects our thinking. It is like a poison that will sure get the better part of us should we let it. I refused to succumb to the poison of hopelessness, to these lonely feeling, to bitterness nor to hatred. I know that while I am breathing then I can still do something more than anyone thought possible. I know that problems and heartaches happen to strengthen me as a person and it will as long as I don't let go of my values.

My heart hurts and I dont know when I will recover but one thing is for sure, if this does not kill me which I think it wont, I am bound to be stronger. I am full of anger. I have tried controlling the demon inside me but somehow it is always trying to get out wanting to destroy or at the very least take revenge of everyone who have underestimated me, but then again my heart is a strong heart. My mind is more powerful than my emotion so I manage to keep performing and doing business.

I have stopped cursing people or situations. I just let people hurt me. In the process I know I am bound to be stronger. I will repay this hurt with kindness. I will be more compassionate to other people. I will turn anger into love. I know I can change my life.

Oceans apart... it is irrelevant according to my mind. I have asked my heart to stop beating for awhile... stop beating until you deserve to beat. Stop beating until the time that someone will say "hey you are useful" and "hey you are great". As long as people compare you to others, ignore them. You can never compare yourself to anyone but your past. You must overcome each temptation of self-pity and replace every angst with enthusiasm.

In the end we are the masters of our fate and the captain of our soul. Oceans apart... but with one constantly rowing towards his star, he will soon reach shore. A life without struggles, a life without darkness is a life not worth living. Struggles strengthen us like pressure to a diamond or the fire to a metal ore. We have to be burnt so we can see our true brilliance.